Sitting here on this cold November day, I feel a little grumpy. Last night I had a talk (heated discussion) with a mother who has a child that has a drug problem. As I was reading my Facebook news feed I ran across another mother with much the same problem, drugs and their child. Having been told I have a blunt way of approaching things, I tried to put this problem into focus. Can’t do it.
It doesn’t seem to matter the income level, both these mothers are at polar opposites on income levels. Yet here they are with the same problem. Over the years I have been of the mind that once a person is addicted to drugs they aren’t the same person you once knew. The drug is their new family now, that is where their loyalty is. You are now just a source of money, and things they can steal for money to buy the drug. Respect, love, family, truth, keeping their word, all that are just ways to get what they need from you. You can’t believe them or trust them, except to screw you over.
Of course there are many variations of this addiction, rehab, detox, and the programs and so on. Couldn’t tell you if they work or not. I know people now that have been drug free 20 years. I do know it is possible to find redemption from this drug addiction. Those same people tell me it is always in the back of their minds they can handle the drug now. It is a constant battle to stay clean. They have to want to be drug free. Sadly they have to hit rock bottom and bounce a few times before they really mean it.
Being Shaman I haven’t really addressed this problem. I don’t have a blessing for it, I don’t have an energy cure, for years I have just not dealt with it. Deep down within myself I feel there is an answer. One I probably won’t enjoy. Most likely that would involve them being with me at some remote area, with great WiFi as I won’t give up my internet. A long way out without any close neighbors. Just me and them, walking a path together for a time. Learning how to live without the drug and holding temptation far away. I don’t even do that with the apprentice program, we skype and seldom meet in person. I do feel the personal touch would be necessary to fight this drug addiction. Helping the addicted become spiritual to rid them of addiction. Could work.
My feelings have always been zero tolerance for drugs and drug users. Though I know many people that smoke weed or drink. I prefer not to be around such activities. My father was a great example of a functioning alcoholic. He showed me what not to do by doing it. To this day I will get up and leave when people are drinking or doing drugs. It is uncomfortable, and it makes me grumpy.
After seeing what these parents go through with their drug addicted children I am so happy my own son didn’t lead me down that path with him. We have our addictions, Computer Games, Movies, and great food. By no means are we perfect, some have called us a pair of teenagers with no responsibilities. We have responsibilities but they are just the everyday kind. Paying our bills and taking care of our pets, being good to each other. I have been blessed, I know that.
One of my sisters married a little man. Really he is 5 or 7 inches shorter than she is. I do find that funny! I once asked him if he was standing in a hole, because he looked so short. Obviously I don’t like him, never have. I remember cursing him to have a disease that didn’t kill him but made him undesirable. I am so bad. He was always bragging that his daughter was such a great athlete, a soccer star. Then he stopped saying anything about his superstar. A few months later I found out his superstar was on drugs, hanging out with the wrong crowd. She was on the front page of the newspaper holding a gun Patty Hurst style while holding up a bank. When she got out of prison she immediately got back with her old crowd. Taking drugs, got pregnant and now they take care of the baby. Drugs are a bad thing and they will impact your family in a negative way if they can.
I am working on a blessing for those drug addicted and their families. I will be thinking about it for a while as I want it to be just right. Putting my will and intent to have spirit show me the way. Wish me luck.
Walks With Thunder
The dreams I have been dreaming are kind of out there these nights. Somehow a scrap of a dream hangs on even days after having dreamt it. I am flying in a stormy sky, beautiful lightning lights up the sky. In the dream I am thinking that flying in a storm might not be a great idea for some. Have you seen those disaster movies where the storm is a category 5, bold, powerful and destructive that is the kind of storm I am in. However since I am a part of Thunder Nation it is an awesome idea for me. As I fly I see lighting coming out of my hands to light up the dark stormy skies. The feeling of power and being embraced by the power of this storm. I wake up feeling the power of that storm within me, knowing I can weather any storm and come out the other side in one piece.
Funny how dreams can give you confidence and remind you of a time that may have never been. The message of the dream, boldly go. Fly through any storm and know there is no power in the universe that can stop you if you’re following your dream. Even now I see myself flying, shooting lightning into the clouds, effortlessly moving forward.
Dreams are powerful for a Shaman, or anyone really. In the dream time there are no limits to what we can do. The power of desire, to break the laws of time and space, being with those that has passed from our lives. Some say that we live many lives in dreams. Sampling each life for just a little while as we return to our “normal” life every time we wake up. Every now and then I wake up and long for the dream time to take me to that wonderful magical place only found in dreams.
There have been people I have met in dreams that couldn’t possibly exist. I had once such meeting in November 1985. In that dream this person said he would give me a gift that I could take back to my waking world. I had no idea he was serious. He also said he would grant my wish to be able to change people’s hearts and minds or just blast them from existence. I still remember that dream as though it just happened. Perhaps it was I who was changed and the old me blasted from existence. Life hasn’t been the same since.
As we approach the full moon our dreams become more powerful. This Saturday we will have a lunar eclipse. A great time to let go of those things that don’t serve us. To begin changes in our lives that do serve us. The power to do things of legend are within us all. Having courage is just doing what you need to even though you’re afraid. Fear is just a feeling, you feel hot you feel cold you feel fear. Once you understand that there is no reason to have fear in our lives.
May we all be blessed with powerful dreams that change our lives for the better. That guide and inspire us to have confidence to move through our world without fear holding us back.
Walks With Thunder
I love this time of year. The leaves are falling, changing colors, the air has a chill in it, great weather to be in front of a fire with a book, my dogs and some hot chocolate. When I was growing up my sisters used to make the chocolate for me, seems my mom was delegating her motherly duties to my three sisters. They made the hot chocolate with real milk and sometimes cinnamon tea. To make cinnamon tea you take two cinnamon sticks and put that in a quart and a half of water. Bring to boil and the longer you simmer it the more color and flavor it gets. I love it all by itself or making my hot chocolate with it instead of just plain water! I also like to buy those little candy canes and put one in the bottom of my hot water for hot chocolate, add the chocolate mix and ta da, candy cane hot chocolate. I know I am spoiled, someone has to do it.
The spirits are restless these days. As we head into October and the Day of the Dead celebration. Some call it all hallows eve, or Sam something most call it Halloween. As we pass towards the end of the year the spiritual energy grows and with it paranormal activity rises. My friend who works for a property management company, says they have a spirit that talks to them. It has moved from the “model apartment” to the office. The motion detectors in the office have gone off and there was no one there to set it off, no one alive that is.
I think one of the spirits around here followed me home as I saw it a couple nights ago flying in my bedroom. Just a dark shadow shape, human head, and the rest just a wispy shadow. It didn’t threaten me just wanted to be close to me. Did you know that the more spiritual power you have the brighter your spiritual light? Way back in the early 90’s my mom came to visit. We went to a local supermarket and I told her to watch a parking lot light. It will go out when I get out of the car and when I go into the market it will come back on. Sure enough it did as I said it would. Mom said stop doing what your doing. She didn’t understand that I wasn’t doing anything, just being me, can’t stop being all this (points to self), just not possible. Since then my spiritual light has gotten much bigger than a parking lot. You know those lights that come on when the ambient light is too low, they operate on a photo electric eye that senses light or the lack of it. When my spiritual light is detected, that sensor sees it as sunlight and turns off. I don’t even notice those street lights going out anymore.
I walk my dogs in all kinds of weather and lately there has been so much rain my phone weather app keeps telling me there is a flood warning. On the bright side all that water has gotten rid of the huge flea population we had. Dogs are combing out clean again, flea free! It was raining so hard it looked like someone turned on a huge shower and left it running all day! Had to play doggie dress up and put my dogs in rain gear. That is what my son calls it when I put sweaters or t-shirts on my dogs. I hate that!
Let yourself be pulled into the spirit of the season, I assure you it is real. The spirit of fall, harvest, Oktoberfest, Halloween, allow yourself to embrace joy. If your blessed with more than you need this is a great time to share it. Donate to a food bank, do something in your comfort zone that helps others and you will be blessed even more. May we all find seasonal magic to warm our hearts.
Walks With Thunder
Spirit and luck
I have a client that loves to go to the money mall (casino) and be a winner (gambler). In the past I have told them that Spirit can’t be used in this way. They often call me and say I am at a Lucky 7 machine is this the right one? I get a feeling or the spirit next to them will say yes or no, or not a chance. The last time they called from the “money mall” I heard a voice say, ‘why are you so resistant to the idea spirit could be used for this?’
I didn’t have a good answer for spirit. Giving my client a blessing to win seemed the thing to do. I asked the spirits that surround them to make them lucky right now so they could win as much money as possible in this moment. They called back to say they won $1400, hmm maybe spirit can be used in this way. Over the course of the evening they called back two more times and I gave two more blessings. They asked a question is this Lucky 7 machine the one, I said no. They played it anyway. The outcome was, got their seed money back $1000 and won $4700 or so.
We talked about it the next day. I said I shouldn’t be so judgmental about what spirit wants to do or not do. In the past spirit has shown me scratch tickets I should buy. I was in a gas station paying for gas and they had a glass box with scratch tickets in it. I don’t like to buy scratch tickets as I see it as a voluntary tax. This time was different. As I walked in the box caught my eye, as it is supposed to do. Then my eye sight zoomed in on the 4th ticket down the roll. I just knew it was a winner. So I purchased four tickets, knowing that three of them were losers and one was a winner. At $5 each I was trusting spirit to be right to the tune of $20. That 4th ticket was worth $250. They said had they listened to my they would have probably won more money in a shorter time as that machine took hours to pay off.
I love Las Vegas because of the shows. Star Trek experience, magic shows, and the food! I don’t gamble much, I do like the dice game Craps. My big sister was with me as I enjoyed my time in Lost Wages. She had run out of money and came up to me and ordered me to give her $100. I said why? Because I am you big sister and you love me. OK can’t argue with that, can I? Reaching into my pocket for my wallet I looked and I had 8 dollars. I don’t like to carry cash, can’t tell where you spent it. Taking those bills out I looked out over a room full of slot machines. I took a deep breath and walked to the one that felt the best. Put my $8 in and pushed every button possible. Hit the big button to spin and out came $118. Taking my $8 dollars back I said take the money its right there. She took it but under her breaths she said. ‘I hate it when he does stuff like that.’
Sometimes I can be stubborn, ok, OK I am stubborn all the time! Spirit gave me another lesson, why put blocks in the path of a prosperity blessing. Prosperity comes from all sorts of places. Even casinos. Remember to be kind today, show love, be love. Love is always the right answer to every question. You just have to figure out how to say it as your answer.
Walks With Thunder
Many times we enter a relationship for the wrong reasons. It could be we were lonely, or at a low point in our self-esteem. Perhaps it has just been a very long time since anyone has paid attention to you. That kind of thinking lets people into our lives that wouldn’t normally get through the sniff test.
Sniff Test, When you meet someone for the 1st time, you get to experience their physical presence. In some cases actually smell them, their breath, or cologne, tie that up with the pheromones and you have the sniff test. It’s good or it’s bad. That gut feeling that says I like them or I don’t like them. That can all be disregarded because we aren’t at our best.
I know women that are in bad relationships and stay there because they don’t feel they can do better. They feel they don’t deserve better. They ignore the red flags, He is off his anti-psychotic meds, uses you for money, allows you to pay the bills cause dang it he gave you $200 once. Tells you ‘I’ve never hit a woman before, but honey your dang close. (dang = colorful metaphor chose any you like) You know baby I only hit you because you made me do it, I am not like that really. If someone hits you, then they are exactly like that and it will happen again because you let them get away with it. Just saying.
It can be very difficult to leave such a situation as that negative partner will tear down your self-esteem every chance they get. While they are using you to pay the bills you can’t save money to leave them. Your will to stand up for yourself gets lower as they exert control and isolation in your life. If a person says I don’t like all your friends choose me instead, that is a huge warning sign. They don’t want you to have friends because your friends will spot this controlling behavior and tell you to drop this loser. Often they will create drama around your friends just so you avoid those friends and the drama he makes.
Once that decision is made to leave the loser (TLTL) confidence and self esteem rise. Often reconnecting with old friends for emotional support and help moving is a great step forward out of a controlling, abusive relationship. Remember not all men are like that, only damaged ones.
The 1st thing you should know, it is not your job to fix people who are damaged. It’s not like a house where you build equity by choosing a fixer upper. In this thing called love choose a person who can have a loving relationship. That doesn’t need fixing. Everyone has baggage but do you really want the extra baggage from damaged people? I don’t think so.
Do yourself a favor and choose people that show you they love you, that don’t tear down your self-esteem. Don’t put yourself in danger when leaving a bad relationship. Have your friends help you move out and let the police know there could be trouble when you do. Those damaged people don’t care or even think about the consequences of what they do to you as you have let them get away with it so far.
They may say things you want to hear. I love you baby, ain’t no body gonna love you more than I do. You’re the best thing in my life. Keep in mind you probably are as you are paying the bills. Don’t fall for that distraction. Keep your goal in mind and cut all ties with the damaged ex’s. No good can come of keeping in touch with them. Guard your personal information, don’t let them find out where you are now. Cause you know they are going to want to rekindle this romance. Those bills gotta be paid ya know!
May we all have the self-love needed to be good to ourselves in relationships with others. May the love in our lives be true, nurturing, satisfying, and joyful. Anything less is unacceptable.
Walks With Thunder
Any resemblance of your personal bad relationship is purely coincidental. I am not singling you out because we talked about that this morning and it is in my head now. Hehehehehe Ok well maybe I am. I am a bad bad shaman today!
Here we are 12 years later and I still want those responsible for 9-11 to suffer till the stars die. I can forgive the stupid thinking they are going to get 72 virgins when they go to heaven. As you might know the Chinese symbol for danger is a roof symbol with two female symbols under it. Now do the math with 72 women under that roof. I wonder what the Chinese symbol for that means, End of the world? Just because I forgive them doesn’t mean they shouldn’t get off with no penalty.
There are many observances today, which is good. Remembering the fallen. I saw a picture on the internet about demolition charges in evidence at ground zero. The more we know the less I like it. What we think we know could be just as bad as what we actually do know. How do we as a nation move forward here?
There is the one million Muslim march today. Not sure how that honors our dead. The two million Biker ride to join the Muslim march was not approved, well duh, why you would put two groups like that together! Maybe we should all remember in our own way. I like the BBQ with neighbor’s idea, or a nice dinner with family.
The best thing to come out of 9-11 was Americans came together. As one nation under god we are against terrorists. Granted our foe is good at diverting our attention. Like racial profiling is a bad thing, don’t look through would be terrorists bags too closely as you might hurt their feelings. Did you know that we have to take off our shoes at the airport because a terrorist had exploding shoes? He was in the Pacific Northwest and it is wet here because it rains much of the time. His shoes must have got wet because he was trying to light the fuse/shoe lace and couldn’t because it was too wet! Can you imagine the fun he is having in prison? Hey buddy you need a light, and they try to light the hair on his feet or something. I know I have a terrible sense of humor. Good thing for us the guys they have doing terrorism aren’t very smart or we would be in trouble! I saw a picture of a terrorist and it had the caption. ‘Died with explosives strapped to his genitals, no one else was hurt in the attack.’ Imagine he is in heaven, and gets his 72 virgins. Tries to get busy but he has blown is man parts to hell, hence not in heaven with him. Those 72 virgins are going to remain virgins Mr. Rocket scientist terrorist.
We as Americans are divided on many issues. President, good or bad, or pretty good at being bad. North and South, I lost a friend over that. She said the South will Rise again, and I said, Why? I guess you have to be southern raised to get that. Republicans and democrats, and tea party, all these labels divide us as a nation. I won’t even go into the sports diversity thing! I don’t watch sports but I do watch Cheerleaders, they always win. In this one thing we as Americans are united against a common foe, Terrorists.
Terrorists be warned, Americans are vigilant and we are watching you. The NSA might be watching us but we are on the lookout for idiots with shoes that have fuses, and racial profiling aside, if it looks like a duck and it quacks like a duck, well god bless it, it’s a duck! May the fallen know peace, may the families of the fallen know they are in our thoughts and prayers. May the stupid terrorists not get smarter. Of course they won’t a smart person doesn’t blow themselves up.
Walks With Thunder
I wish that I knew what I know now, when I was younger! I have found that many people have difficulty communicating with the one they love. They send mixed messages, don’t say what they mean as their thoughts are kind of messed up by the oxytocin or pheromones of love, to say what they want correctly. Often they are torn between attraction and running away!
People are single for many reasons. One could say that single people have never had a relationship that has ever worked out. There are some that had their love pass away and others who for no choice of their own are left alone. When a single person finds a love that is bigger than any feeling they have ever had before. It can bring about the approach avoidance syndrome. They are attracted to you, there is just something they see in you that they can’t find anywhere else. However because you are the biggest feeling they have ever had, Attraction! You also represent the biggest relationship failure they could ever have, hence Avoidance.
Communication is the only way to fix that situation. I see people making this work every day. Teach your special someone to communicate with you. This is not the time to use female speak, yes means no, Go ahead and do that when what you really mean is do that and see the consequences of your actions cause I know I won’t like that. Be clear about what you’re saying and doing. Words follow actions, your consistent in who you are, build trust that way.
When your heart invested in a relationship sometimes we get tunnel vision and can’t see our path clearly. You need a person that isn’t involved to see what you’re missing. Most times that is your BFF or a family member, someone you trust. Hopefully they are a person who has a successful relationship. Of course you could always call me, your friendly neighborhood Shaman! I do specialize in love and relationships. When you get that advice, see if it resonates with you, if it does then pay attention. If not then don’t do that!
Set yourself up for successful relationships. Work on your communication skills. Don’t sweat the small stuff. Don’t create problems that don’t exist with your fear. Walk with your head held high and a smile. We all look great with a smile. Be creative about your dates, picnic in at the lake, walk in the mall with a plan. Know your love’s likes and dislikes and remember to listen! Listening is such an underrated skill. I had three sisters and they taught me to listen. Best thing they ever did for me. Not that it was easy to get that lesson, took me years.
I am here for you. May you be blessed with all that you need. May your love be faithful and true.
Walks With Thunder
I did many blessings under the blue moon last night. The thing most had in common was more money please! That is not a surprise to you, of that I am sure. I did see something that touched my heart, a few, said ‘let the love of my lifetime come back to me and if not that person then a better one.’ In our past most of us who have loved deeply and lost, know that feeling of longing. Wanting that special one to come back to us. In some cases that does happen. Usually that is a sign of the epic romance as they do keep coming back till you get it right.
I know I have had an epic romance three times. At some point I expect them all to come back at the same time! Then we will see if I have learned wisdom or not. I like to think that this time I will say the things I should have said then. Do the things I should do to keep that epic romance as my own. If my star came back to me today. Am not sure what I would do. How do you tell someone you have an empty place in your heart where they used to walk? That the magic they brought to your life touched everything since.
Having had three epic romances I know that more are possible. That the next one could be the biggest one ever. To eclipse the ones I have already had. Our spirits break the bonds of time and space to be together. Bigger than that is a tall order, yet I feel spirit will do it. I could ask for it right now but there sometimes reasons we don’t get what we want right now. They might not be ready to have a forever after at this time. Timing is everything.
Walking with power is a tricky thing too. If I get angry then it is possible those I am angry with will suffer. Even though I consciously didn’t focus negative energy on them. Changing the weather is easy to do, yet I don’t do it very often. I wait to be asked. Unless I am in an interview and want to show them something. Knowing when to use power and when to let things happen, not always easy to know.
There are some who wonder why do I charge for the spiritual things I do. I like to eat and have a nice place to sleep. Spirit gave me the gift but doesn’t support me on this life path with money. Even priests charge for a blessing, those aren’t free. Many years ago in 1985 I had a paranormal experience in a snow storm at my home in Freemont. That is north of downtown Seattle. At that time I rented out two rooms of my home. One of the renters had a priest come in and bless the house after that snow storm, cost him $50.
May you all be blessed with more than you need, to be loved every day of your life by those you love. To have health, and the sense to enjoy it!
Walks With Thunder.
At some point we all do this, fight our intuition. I didn’t want to see the outcome of Angie’s disease, I shut the possibility that she wouldn’t make it out of my mind. Even though my apprentices told me over and over this will end for her over the summer, in six months she will pass. I couldn’t accept that, so when she passed it hit me harder than had I accepted all the signs and my own intuition. My point, we all at some point ignore our intuition because we don’t like what it is telling us.
Not that I am complaining about that. Many people call me and ask my advice because they don’t want to listen to their own intuition (inner voice). They want to ignore that little voice that says, I know my partner is cheating on me, people at my work are setting me up to fail, this relationship isn’t going to end well. My job of course is to listen to the spirits next to them saying, He’s or she’s a cheater, You need to watch your back at work, there must be 57 ways to leave your lover so think of one cause that is coming soon.
Intuition is sometimes the voices of the spirits who walk with you through life guiding you, giving you inspiration just when you need it. You could almost say inspiration is in spirit guidance just for you. I love my job, helping people to see where they are in life and relationships. Getting them ready for the road ahead.
On some level when people call me it is because they know something is wrong, they just can’t accept it so they want to bounce it off me and see if that inner voice is right. Many times I don’t have to be psychic at all, I just have to be a good listener. I can hear those spirits next to you saying things you don’t want to hear, saying things that hurt but you need to know. I understand that, been there myself not too long ago.
Usually that intuitive voice in our heads is right, not always but most of the time. There have been a few times when I wanted something so much that I mistook that little voice for my own inner thoughts. Good thing I have many gifted friends who tell me what they know about what I want to do before I do it. I don’t have to get a reading as they just go ahead and read me. Very funny, there are times I don’t want to know, being the good friends they are, they tell me anyway.
It is OK to get a second opinion about your inner voice, recommended even. Till we learn to trust that voice of intuition we need to hear what we don’t want to hear. Need to face that situation that brings us sadness. Courage they say is doing something even though you are scared. May we all be blessed with courage when we need it and good friends that tell us what we need to hear. May our intuitive voices be trusted and guide us well.
Walks With Thunder
On the other side of someday.
On the other side of someday, I will learn to play the piano, and practice swing dancing at night. May even learn to listen to music when I am at home and not just in the car, where it should be. I will write that book that is within me and share what I know with everyone that wants to read it. Empowering each of us to be that person we have always wanted to be. Knowing that our opinions, our choices are the most important ones. Not to give our power away to others.
On the other side of someday, I will look back on my mistakes and say that made me who I am today. Without that experience I would be less than I am. I will fully forgive those who stabbed me in the back and remove the curses I put on them daily…. OK well maybe not that far ;o)
On the other side of someday, my twin flame and I will find new ways to love each other. We will nurture each other to be the best us possible. I will have that love affair with my new wife every night, as she is my mistress and my love. I won’t be looking into women’s eyes, wondering if she is the one. Because I will know her in my life every day.
On that other side of someday, I will walk with all my friends again. We will laugh and talk about the good times we had. Then we will go have some new good times. Debbie Vicari and I will video the intro to my TV show. She will sing Cruzin, and I will drive my convertible on route 66 as our backdrop. Angie and I will go to Orcas Island and camp out for a few days enjoying the food, water and scenery. My ex-wife Debra and I will talk about how proud we are of our son and the awesome man he turned out to be. Though they have passed, I know I will see them once more.
As we should all know someday could be any day, even today. Today on my other side of someday I will make the best of what I have. I will be the best me possible on this day.